the artist needs a portfolio - anxiety intensifies

  The look on his face makes me wonder if he's also trying to make his portfolio. From the sketchbook of Jess Couture.

The look on his face makes me wonder if he's also trying to make his portfolio. From the sketchbook of Jess Couture.

  Jess in 2015, painting something solely because she wanted it on her wall. I still have that painting and I still love it! I miss that long hair...

Jess in 2015, painting something solely because she wanted it on her wall. I still have that painting and I still love it! I miss that long hair...

Portfolio.

Cohesive body of work. 

Art style.

Artist voice.

*breaks out in a cold sweat*

I'm not new to creating art, but I am new to the art business. When I wasn't trying to be a capital A Artist, I just made whatever I felt like. Now I want to be noticed, I want to be paid for my art. I decided to give this a shot just over a year ago. In that time I have made a lot of stuff. Other people have told me that they "like my style", and I just blink at them. I don't see it. What is my style?

My process has changed so much in the last year, and I feel like I'm in the process of changing it again. This is why I still  don't have a portfolio. If you've come to this website around the time I've written this post, you'll have noticed that the first page was completely blank. I need help! 

I've created a lot of things that I love, but if I just picked out those pieces for my portfolio, would they tell any sort of story? Would there be a common thread or narrative? Would they be recognizably mine? 

Does it even matter? At this point is it best to just put up my best work and continue to make art and uncover my voice and style? I do think I'm close, but I also don't want to keep putting off making a portfolio, because what if I never feel like I've found my voice? 

I think I'm just going to take my own advice and put up my best work. That's why portfolios can be updated, right?